Archive | November 2012

Voices we all hear.

  Hey there, 
Problem: we all talk to our selfs. 
Soo.. voices tell u all the time what u need or what u need to do or what u want at this moment… Some voices tell u when to smoke or some tell u not to get out from bead. Voices that we all hear inside our heads – but there are ofc good voices like ones which tell you to do something good or voice that gives u strength when u need it the most. Listening to your voices makes you more conscious of your problems, or you can use them to your benefits like motivating your self for a job you been avoiding. 
  From where are thous voices? In your head ofc…. but from where? If u believe that our memories shape our selfs then it is simple to explain.
   For example: we all went through puberty, and now after few years if u look at your self u will see that you are different, you are not the same person as u where 16 or 19… but where went that person? He is still a part of you but he is muted… HE has no hold over new you but some times through your life he will try to tell you something. Out dated versions of you will talk to you will try to seduce you into doing something stupid or extreme only because that old you would do that.
  When i was younger i started  smoking only because all my class mates where, and i see now that  every time i want to smoke i hear this urge from back part of my brains yelling. “Go to smoke” he says, “This will help you” he says.  But old me – u know what – Fuck you and your little social problems i am grow up now and i don’t need to smoke any longer to look cool.   Soo… yeah i am quiting smoking – and i feel powerful and confident enough to do this. I have means to stop myself from smoking, i know how to control myself.    
 Ty for reading… hugs and kisses … ^^  

Past and future.

Man u are now comes not from the past actions or decisions u made, but from future and opportunities u create…

Explanation :

What is you? No not you but “You”… it’s collection of unique – experienced only by you memories.
May u think that i am wrong with this? Ofc u can… we all make our own world inside our heads. But may i interrupt and shake your world at least a bit? Ofc i can! If my world works like that.. why not.

Back to memories… so if my consciousness if just collection of imagines, that means my slide show changes with time… and how i will get from here to another me? Simple – future will help me with that.

Choice is yours – stay in the past and relive your memories, until they are just dull resemblance to man u where, or live in future.

Future- this is place from where comes everything, good or bad, it all is weighting    behind the curtain of time. After curtain is raised it becomes past.. and worries me no more. What worries me is only opportunities i can create now for myself in future.

I know that boy, who created me – and i will create man which i will proud to be.

Thank you.

Be? Or be some1?

Hi there…
And once again my head is impounding from inside..
Here is the problem: Ppl just cant be, we all need to be somebody. Our community is build this way.. we all don’t give other ppl just to be, we all put on others a quest of describing them self to us like somebody…

U just cant go on around telling ppl that u a human and this is what u do…
U need to describe your self to others, and what do u do with your life…
U must produce some kinda results for other, so that they can be sure that u are person, from whom they can get something.

Sooo few years back, when i was in Poland.. We visited some kinda church with huge forest around it. We where walking in that forest with our guide… that was beautiful place.. with different religious sculptures… But i do not remember any of them only because there was something even better that art..

A hut in middle of the forest.. yes a hut… and our guide explained to us That this is home for an outcast.. He where living here for many years already.. giving him self every day to god..

Common guys, are we all so terrible that this guys choose to live on his own in the forest?
Living with the worst person in the world(your self), waking up to same person, talking to same person.. fighting with your self every freaking day. No electricity no running water, even no freaking toilet… He choose all this so he wont need to put up with society…

So guys are we all so terrible that ppl want to run from us?
That ain’t surprise to me… Human on his own is pretty intelligent being, reasoning and trying to be productive.. but society this mega organism is terrible person.

We cant change this, we only can talk about it and survive it.

Hey, check this talented guy out:
His music reminds me of old times, sitting in front off TV playing sega with my dad.. precious memories.. Thanks you for doing what u do guy..! 😀